I think I will take a break from blogging.
Im sorry, but i had to do this.

you all take good care of yourselves.

S.

well, I came accross this quiz in my itty bitty's page, so decided to take it right away!


THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
Saif
Sid
Sadi


THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
there are thousands, but the ones i can remember:
I've got my F, C and K, Now all I need is U.
Fearless
Noninstanteneous Replenishment


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
my wide palms
my executive tummy
biceps


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
This is a question for the ladies, so I'll pass :P


THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
temper temper -- dad
softness - mom
perfectionism - dad


THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
only one thing - Death
am not scared of anything else.


THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
cigaretts
shower
sms


THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
half sleeve white t-shirt
pepe black jeans
and ... :D


THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
Respect
Trust
Love


TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
Though I sound tough most of the time, I am actually very soft and gullible.
I can type with my elbows.
I dont know what to write for the third point :P


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
voice
curves :D
look


THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
be with my girl.
go give a hug to my itty bitty
Partaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay


THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
Financial Analyst
Chartered Accountancy
Financial Engineering


THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
Brazil
Hawaii
Ibiza


THREE KIDS NAMES YOU LIKE:
Amanda
Koushik
Anu


THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
Make my parents proud of their son
meet a few people scattered all over the world
go back to my past and adjust a few things.



THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
No obligations :P






~~ Sid.

you the know sweetest word anyone can ever thing of, anyone can ever get to hear?
its ma.
you know who's the best?
its my ma.


In Bangla, it means "mother".

I love my ma.



~ Sid.

Here I am, back again. And as usual, after a while.
Well, its weekend, and this weekend has been much relaxing, unlike last few.
Though there has been a bit of gloomy cloud around, but I believe its gonna be over soon. I want it to be over and I will get over it.

It has been rainy and stormy last 4-5 days. We been having a lot of rain. Its much needed though. The rain swepts away all the warmth from the house. It has been terribly hot last week and the past few weeks. The stormy wind ... it feels so good to be sitting by the side of the window and watch the trees dancing. A few minutes back -- we had ice-rain. well, Ice rain as in little pieces of ice - not the sleet ice rains they have in usa.

Its been slow at work. Not too busy. and not to shabby at all. My Director was telling me the other day that he signed on my confirmation letter - but I still haven't got it in my hands. Hopefully will, soon. I am expecting a raise with that too. Well, my confirmation was due on April 17th .... so, its past two months. If i get a raise, I'll get some arrear too ... since my confirmation will be on effect from that day, and last month - my salary went at the previous basic rate. anyway ... its not much of a great topic to talk about here.

Well, this weekend my parents went to our village to treat the whole village - sweets. Sweets in occassion of my elder bro becoming a father!!
Yep .... I am an uncle now. YaaaaaaaaaaaaaY.
Take a look at the pictures .... here.
He's a bouncing baby boy and his name is Shiham Siddique. I am soooo happy for my brother. I am proud of him. *something in my eyes*

Well, Me and my little brother ran some kitchen experiments yesterday. First we decided to make cake and mango milkshake. For to make milkshake ... I kept the milk in the freezer earlier. And after i got the cake in the oven -- I found that the milk is frozen rock solid .. so my milkshake couldnt bring all the girls in the yard.

as for the cake .... first I made it for cake. then i added more flour and decided to go for cookies. then I changed my mind again, and decided to make it a cake. So added more water and oil. Ok, so the cake was in the oven ... and I realized I didnt mix any baking powder. well, the cake was ready.
On the table, after the first bite ..... I found that - I didnt add sugar. So, it was hellofa cake :P
Today my bro made some strawberry jello. We had it with toast :P
It kinda sucked though. but anyway -- experiements are experiments.

After a long time, I watched the Pink Floyd live concert ... the one they had on the division bell tour. It is so unbelievable. The light-choreography, the music .... its a total thrill. A stadium full of people .... only they could do is watch whats going on infront of them! I wish i were one of those lucky biyatches :))

Well, here's one song by them:

"High Hopes"

Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young
In a world of magnets and miracles
Our thoughts strayed constantly and without boundary
The ringing of the division bell had begun
Along the long road and on down the causeway
Do they still meet there by the cut
There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps
Running before time took our dreams away
Leaving the myriad small creatures trying to tie us to the ground
To a life consumed by slow decay

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
With friends surrounded
The nights of wonder

Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide
At a higher altitude with flag unfurled
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed of world

Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
though down this road we've been so many times

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river


Well, apart from all those activities .... I had my headphones on. That brings me into the songs of the day!! YaaaaaaaaaaaaY!!!!!

Cool No. 9 - Joe Satriani.
Flying in a Blue Dream - Joe Satriani.
Summer Song - Joe Satriani.
Point to note that these three tracks are from the G3 Live concert with Eric Johnson and Steve Vai. Mind blowing, simply. Check out my songs page for the first two tracks. You can find some other pieces there too. Specially, echoes. This 27 minute long song is the best one can listen to. Its a must listen
Hibernation - AR52. Trance once again.
Flying Sorcery and Sand in your Shoes by Al Stewart. Two classic pieces that I like very much.
Landing in London - Three Doors Down. A beautiful song, which reminds me of something happening to me ofcourse :)

Anyway ... I think I will wrap up for today now. Mom just called ... they are on their way back and will be home in a couple of hours. Im sure the moment she comes back, she'll shout the hell out of my ears "Look what you have done to your room in one signle day" .... hehehehe. I'll have my bro to make things up a bit -- specially the table :P

take care yourselves.

Sid.


PS: :) *hugs* :)

This is the first day of the rest of my life.
This thought is what I have every morning, that helps me start a brand new day with lot of enthusiasm. Because, I want to live my life as much as possible. Everyone does the same.

Anywho .... the day before yesterday was my birthday. I am 29 now, heading to 30. Cool!!!!
as someone say "cool like a bull". I am a bull. Taurus that is.

Coming back to that "first day of the rest of my life" thing ..... from that point of view, everyday is a new day for me, I start a new life.

Well, I am not sure where I am going to with this thought. So i better stop here.

My birthday went okay. Not too shabby. Had a long stressful day at work. But at the end, it eased out. AAA called up and came over at work and we got back home together where there was a big surprize awaiting for me. Nipun sent a black forest.
Later in the evening mom cooked some good food, and dad sent some grilled chicken from the club!
So had a sumptuous dinner :)
the next day we had a family gathering at my cousin's place. there were lots of food ... and I ate like a pig :)



anywho ..... Im so bored today. I thought I would go out -- but I ended up watching tv. I dont watch tv ... but i got there today, and I was too lucky to find my favorite program "Daily Show with Jon Stewart". Well, its a comedy central telecast, but once a week, CNN telecasts a *global edition* of this show. Well, I was happy to be able to watch him after more than a year ... know what i mean? afterall it was my favorite show in the US .... apart from the SNL.

so after that show .... I started surfing the channels and got stuck with some stupid movie. then i stopped with the movie for a while and I watched the 4th episode of "the Sopranos" first season. Well, I like this series .... Tony Soprano and his russian girlfriend :D. I also feel sorry for him because, his wife is so beautiful and so sexy! but he never even kisses her :D

and ofcourse, tony's daughter ... she's a bomb. well -- in the first season, she was younger. but i saw the 4th season too ... there she was a grown up woman, and a bombshell :P

anyway .... enough of this crap.

I just got a call from my school buddy Zaki. from 1996 to 2001, we had regular contacts ... every other day. we used to play card, every freaking day ... me, him, sadi and tonmoy. (sadi is my school friend too ... he works in hsbc bacnk now, and a father of two bouncing baby boys), tonmoy is working in grameenphone in the international business dept, he's a deputy manager now.
after I left for usa in 2001 ... I lost all kinds of contact with zaki .... after I came back -- i tried to call him quite a few times, but never could reach his cell phone. anyway, i was so happy to hear from him -- after .... umm .. about 4 years! in the meantime, he has a baby too :) his wife and us were good friends too :)

anyway .... for some reason, im feeling so restless right now. I will stop here and call it a quits for now.

*hugs* for everyone.



.~ Sid


Addendum:

Kristi, here's a reply to your msg:
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well, I just noticed that last time I posted, we had a long weekend, and we have a long weekend this weekend too. and just like before, Im bored. Im sofa king bored!!!

and, a special hug for my itty bitty here.

and, to someone ..... you know -- i have my eyes closed every once in a while. really.



~ Sid
.

well, we have a long weekend. two days gone. one more to go. and I am bored.
well, last few months .... well, i would say about last 6 months, it has become less easy for me to go out and ... hang out. I just went to work, came back from work, and vegetated. Thats it.

well anyway ..... I hope for a good day tomorrow. I will take my bro out for shopping. Im planning to buy him a pair of shoes. I bought him one paid last month ..... but that was a formal black leather. this time i want to buy him sneakers. I like Reebok and New Balance. lets see which one he likes.

Im planning to order myself couple pairs of shoes too :) thought i have two pairs of shoes not used yet .... but you know -- i like shoes. I have six pairs right now :):)
about *ordering* .... well, my feet is extra large ... i use 13W < american size. I tell you what --- THATS large :D
so, I usually order my shoes ... custom made .... :)
(in usa i always found shoes of my size though ... they have big six footers walking around everywhere)



Long long time ago, I talked something about closing my eyes, and feel what I want to feel; see what I want to see; Do what I wanna do amd think what I want to thing.
I do this very often now :)

Songs of the day!!!!!!

Arms wide open by Creed
Astrology Domain by Pink Floyd
Sunburn by Fuel
Hemmorhage by Fuel
My Happy Ending by Avril Lavinge
Seventh Star by Black Sabbath
I Wont Cry for You by Black Sabbath
Rusty Angels by Black Sabbath


anyway .... I just wanted to drop by here for a quicky. I guess im done here for tonight.
take care my friends :)


S.

At last, I gathered myself here, at one piece.
now what?
Its been too long I been here, and there's no point saying the same thing "i missed being here" again. (I missed being here.)

Lot of things happened in my life since the last time I came in here. I will try to jot down a summery of those events in here tonight, as much as I can.
I suddenly found myself in a writing mood. :) I will utilize this mood before it goes away :)

Oh well. The moment I talked about my good writing mood I lost it. Anyway, am back here. Actually, I just found myself free at work. So, I'm writing from my work. I know when I go home, I'll be busy otherwise. So thought of utilizing free time now :)

So ... what was I saying? Ya. I have a lot of things to say. Lot things to talk about.

First, about my Bangkok trip.
I know its really really really late for to talk about my trip... but, what the hell.

Well, my flight delayed about for half an hour. So, reached BKK around 1:30pm local time. And ofcourse, I didn't book any hotel or anything beforehand. and I paid the price of my procrastination! Then again, I got into a trap of a travel agent (i got there myself though) and she managed to screw me up with a city-tour (with a private car and a guide) worth a lot of money. She boasted that its included with the hotel "deal" .... but I have reasons to believe that she was shitting me. anywho. So I checked into my hotel, got out, got something to eat, and got back in the hotel.
The next seven days was pretty much all the same. Spent most of my time in the hotel room, watching tv, except for the times when I was in the hospital for checking and testign and all that.
I was too stupid. anyway -- there's no point grumping about "why I didnt go to the movies, why I didnt go for shopping, why I didnt go to city tour, why I didnt go to places where people go ..... etc.). Well, I had this city tour given by the travel agent ... which was a 2-hour drive through the city. Fuckin eh.
So, the day before I got back -- I really got off from my butt and went for shopping!.
bought stuff ... mainly checked out on things. BUt ofcourse, I didnt buy so many things .... the reason -- I *thought* the weight limit is 20KGs. I'll come back to his issue later on.
One thing I did last couple of days was, I bought a one-day pass for the sky-train ... and roamed aroudn the city with it ..... for a logn time. IT was too hot outside and the skytrains are fully airconditioned!!

Anyway -- I came back home two days before as planned. And joined at work the very next morning.
And from that very day, I got into a stampede .... it was quarter-end reporting. So, had a hell-of-a joyride with the rollercoaster. The thunderstorm at work went away couple of days back. Now Im pretty relaxed. See!! Im writing blog from work ... khek khek khek.

I bought a DVD player couple of weeks back. I inaugurated my new player with Tom Hanks .... "The Terminal" << another Hanks masterpiece. Consequently, I watched "Meet the Fockers", "Big Fish", "The Anchorman", "Elf" and "Dodgeball". Didint get any time to watch more movies - since didnt had time much. I hope to watch a few next couple of days since we have a long weekend this weekend. Actually, our weekend starts today!!!!!!!! Tomorrow is a National Holiday!!! YaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaY.
Tomorrow is our Bangla new year. We wish everyone "Shubho Nobo Borsho", which means, "Happy New Year". IT's gonna be 1412th year of Bangla Calendar.

My company will launch a new product tomorrow - its called "Djuice". in celebration of this new product launching - company gave all the employees a cap, a t-shirt --- and .... guess what ..... ....a SIM Card for everyone. That means, we got one connection for free!!!! (all i'd need to do is to buy a handset). Well, I was going to buy a cell phone for my mom tomorrow -- and today I got one for freeeee!!!! hala-e-lula!!!
Im gonna use the cap myself, and will give the t-shirt to my bro :D

I've been listening to different songs lately. but LImp Bizkit, Smashing Pumpkins, Buddha Bar, Iron Maiden and Al Stewart were dominating.

anyway -- Im pretty much off the mood now. If things go right -- I'll come back here soon. Butofcourse, I think I covered most of it. Im pretty sure I had lot more things in my mind for jotting down here .... but at this moment, I can't think of anything else.

take care!


Sid.

Im simply suffering from a writers' block.
I want to write so many things, but nothing coming up.
I will give it a shot again, tomorrow, hopefully.

Miss you all very much.

S.

is it?


S.

Ok.
From now on, this is how things will go.
I am back here. and
this is this and that is that.

Last time I wrote anything was just a month back. I just realized yesterday that I didnt even visited my own blog myself for more than two weeks!!!
Now that sucks big!

Ok, now what? nothing. Its blank. ummm -- no, actually its not blank. Its totally filled with numbers. I been crunching numbers. Numbers, numbers, numbers.
dabloo dabloo dabloo dot numbers dot com dot org.
To hell with numbers.

Well, I actually started this post a few days back. And I lost my mood after that. So I stopped right there. Now im back :)

Life's been okay. Last one month .... lot of things happened, lot of things changed also.
But overall, it wasnt too bad, if I calculate the average.

The first two weeks of the last month were same as th month of January --- thunderstorm, that is. But after the 16th feb, the pressure eased up. The Finance Division planned a corporate tour for 4 days on the beach. But due to political instable situation, they backed up. But by that time, we, the finance people were really eshausted due to the year-end pressure and we badly needed a break. And, we had a four-day long holiday ahead. So, a few of us communicated with each other, and we decided to go for the trip on personal arrangements. And off we went to the beach. We were 32 of us, initially. Later 11 more people joined us there.

Those two days were simply fun. Jumping on the beach, horseplaying at the swimming pool, playing cards, or just hanging out by the beach. Then, the ride on a jeep along the beach was the best part. a group of people went to the St. Martin's Island, which is some distance from the shore. I will go there next time i take a vacation :)

well, thats about it from the regular activities part.

This came out as a surprize that Rabab, my orkut buddy is Rubana's younger sister. Rubana is ofcourse, my friend Saquib's wife. I lost my words when she came forward and said *Sid bhai* :D its a small world, afterall.
Its still probably a secret to Saquib and Rubana that she knows me. But I'll break the ice next time I talk to him. :P

My life has changed a lot. My life as in, my lifestyle, my thoughts, my line of thoughts, my direction of thoughts. Well, im pretty much standing on a border line. Im installing a few control mechanisms there. Firewall needed to block emotion outflows. On the other hand, something dragging me back from installing the firewall. well, I'll just watch on, will wait and see. Probably I will see a good outcome later on.
Lets see.

Anyway ....
songs of the day:
Circles by Joe Satriani - an exquisite piece of guitar work, once again.
Californication - Red Hot Chilli Peppers - its probably the best song by them.
Loser by 3 Doors down - I like 3DD. I also bought their new album titled *Seventeen Days*.
Magamata Ööd by Ines - a Sweet Estonian song. I heard they got some national award for this song.
Revelations by Iron Maiden - Another Iron Maiden Classic.

I am planning to buy a dvd player now :P
and, the big news ahead ... I am going to Bangkok, Thailand on March 21st. Got my tickets already. Will apply for the visa, tomorrow. Details later.

well, its exactly 4:00am now. I choose this time to call it a quits for tonight.
You all, take it easy.

Bye
S.


PS: I really did, I really missed this place, very much.